2011년 11월 21일 월요일

#12. TED Video: Barry Schwartz on the Paradox of Choice

Ye Ji Park / 111053 / 6
Mr.Garrioch
English Composition
September 22 2011

Barry Schwartz on the Paradox of Choice



The talk starts as Schwartz suggests the dogma of modern society about choices and freedom that maximized freedom and welfare is achieved by maximizing choices. This dogma is so deeply embedded in our society so that nobody could be skeptical about. However, Schwartz warns people to be deterred about voluminous list of choices. His grounds for such caution are that “many choices” brings out self-blame, high opportunity cost, and acute disappointment from high expectation.
First, people tend to blame themselves after decision when given a lot of candidates. Assume a guest in blue jeans shop. The clerk asks, “Slim fit, easy fit, relaxed fit? Stonewashed or acid-washed? Button fly or zipper fly?” Considering the amount of questions the clerk asks, there will be hundreds, thousands of blue jeans waiting for the guest’s choice. Finally the guest made decision, but later if he finds out a single scratch, he would be virulent toward himself for not making a perfect choice after answering all the questions.
Second reason regarding opportunity cost is lucid; opportunity cost is a sacrifice for the decision—that is, cost of the foregone products after making a choice. “Many choices” means a person should give up more than in “few choices”, thus higher opportunity cost. Final reason, disappointment from high expectation, is aroused because a person believes at least one of the candidates among thousands will be perfect, and expect too much. Schwartz provided a cartoon saying that “Everything was better back when everything was worse”, because when everything was worse, people could get “pleasant surprise” as finding a choice higher than their expectation. He, thus, argues the way not to disappoint is to expect little.


Blue Jeans in Department Store


But it is not only “many choices” that engenders depression; “few choices” do the same, maybe even more than “many choices”. Given few choices, people do blame themselves. Examining few candidates, which at least have one unsatisfying point, people self-denounce for not trying to find more choices. To give an example of blue jeans, a guest in small shop with only two or three jeans would reproach himself for not going to a big department store. Additionally, if the chance of going to the department store is considered as an opportunity cost, the “few choices” have opportunity cost as much as the “many choices”.

Schwartz also articulated the key to happiness is low expectation, but low expectation is also the key to disappointment. What low expectation brings is efface of motivation; consider the blue jeans again. In the small shop, there were only three jeans, which made the guest lose his expectation. The guest then became dispassionate, thinking himself no matter what choice he makes the jean would be disappointing, then chose any jean between three. If the guest still clung to high expectation, he could choose the best among three with fervor, and relish more happiness. In short, contrasting with Schwartz’s view, low expectation can deflate happiness.

I was profoundly interested from this TED video, since this was directly related to the issue I was recently apprehensive of. Thanks to my parent’s financial state and intellectual ability, I was inherited privilege to have wide range of choices. When I was in the ninth grade, I had three choices for my high school entrance—KMLA, foreign language high school, normal high school—while others had only the last chance. I chose KMLA and fortunately entered the school, but spending almost a year in this school, I sometimes felt dubious about my choice. Listening to Economics lecture with forty other students was far from my expectation of ten students discussing freely about financial crisis. Competing with brainy, diligent students reminded me opportunity cost of studying in normal high school. Thinking all these, I scolded myself once in a while.
However, as writing about side-effects of “few choices”, I interpreted my choice of entering KMLA in new perception. If I were not provided financial sufficiency, for example, I would have entered normal high school, I would have missed SAT and AP courses in KMLA and blame myself for not searching scholarship. Envying KMLA students heading to UPenn or Colombia, I would lose motivation to study and spend three years wastefully.
Given numerous choices, I picked up KMLA, and my disturbance toward this choice is “relax of the the haves”. Disappointing over one candidate from scanty list of choices is “resignation of the have-nots”, and despite of Schwartz’s dissuasion, I would rather choose the former.



2011년 11월 17일 목요일

#11. Mr.Moon's Assignment: Polygamy

Ye Ji Park / 111053 / 6
Mr.Moon
English Composition
September 17 2011

Should the Government Legalize Polygamy?


Bellum omnium contra omnes, “the war of all against all”. This is a famous quotation of Thomas Hobbes, the social philosopher who suggested the concept of social contract. In his book Leviathan, Hobbes claimed that belligerent and militant human nature would give arise to “the war of all against all”. To prevent the social chaos provoked, humans forged social contract, by giving some of their authority to the government. Hobbes now is valued to possess too negative opinion toward human nature; still, his argument about the government’ role to prevent conflicts between social members is beyond question. Thus, if something is assumed to cause social disturbance, it is government’s role to illegalize it. Representative is polygamy; despite banning this unique way of love seems like invading human rights, it is unquestionable that legalizing polygamy results in numerous conflicts.

Actually, during past millenniums, polygamy had been practiced frequently all over the world. In Korea, for example, since Gojoseon—the first nation existed in the Korean Peninsula—having a concubine was perfectly legal. Characteristics of ancient agricultural society made polygamy as a natural common phenomenon; many wives mean many children, many children mean labor abundance in fields, labor abundance means wealth. Additionally, men from prestigious family married many women to continue on the family line.
And there was no one who resisted against polygamy. This was because people, especially women, the weak in polygamous family, took their assigned role (childbirth) for granted. In other words, women thought the only thing they could do is delivering a baby; they never imagined they could gain financial independence and enter the workforce. – Until the modernization. As the world went through the feminist movement, women recognized their ability was not limited to childbirth, and started to pioneer new life instead of living as a concubine of a man. Since then, polygamy started to cover up its traces slowly, and now except few countries including Tibet and some African nations, keeping an official concubine is regarded as ignoring women’s rights and receives negative public gaze.

Those who engage in polygamy marriage say that they voluntarily choose to be a concubine instead of female worker. However, prejudice toward polygamy is already stuck in people’s mind. No matter how strongly the women insist their free will, majority stares them scornfully. What is more, this scorn is directed also toward children who didn’t choose to born in polygamous family. Rena and Kathleen Mackert, children from polygamous group of Fundamentalist Churst of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints (FLDS), witnessed they suffered from local residents’ glances and unfair treat such as less employment opportunities. Likewise, considering the social bias toward polygamy, there is no doubt in outbreak of social conflicts between majority and polygamy family.

Polygamy also brings out serious family conflicts, too. Two women fighting over the husband’s favor is a common scandal in history; Sukjong, the nineteenth king of Chosun Dynasty, is a well-known example. Sukjong, who did not have baby in his relationship with Queen Inhyeon, married the royal concubine Jang. As soon as Jang gave birth to a child, she persuaded Sukjong to expel Queen Inhyeon. However, as Sukjong called Queen back into the palace few years later, Jang cursed Inhyeon spiritually and prayed for her death. Likewise, even in the past when keeping concubines were considered normal, women’s competitions to monopolize husband’s love existed. Such human nature is the same in the present; to give an actual instance, Carolyn Jessop, the polygamy survivor, witnessed there was “tremendous: competition between the wives to get the most favor with her husband in the interview with TIME. Disputes between wives result into rivalry between their children, and the family relationship would be very unstable. Considering these, legalizing polygamy will be condoning hostile conflicts between family members.

It is obvious that polygamy can be another way of expressing love, and to love is one of the most basic human rights. However, considering numerous public and family conflicts the legalization of polygamy would bring – such as contemptuous glances from the society, or jealousy between family members – the government should put their duty to prevent conflicts above insuring polygamous family’s way of loving.


2011년 11월 13일 일요일

#10. Review: Hardboiled (W&Whale)

I received three CDs for my birthday present; first one is <I'm With You> (Red Hot Chili Peppers), second is self-made album with the giver's fourteen favorite tracks, and the last one is <Hardboiled> (W&Whale). To love every single track in one album is a hard task; actually, in my whole seventeen years of life, there had been only one. And after I heard <Hardboiled>, it became my second.


W (Where the Story Ends), electronic band composed of three members (배영준, 한재원, 김상훈), was formed in 2001, and its first two albums – <안내섬광> (2001) and <Where the Story Ends> (2005) – received attention from music maniacs and critics. But as W recruited a new female vocal, Whale, their music raised a bigger hit. There is an episode about scouting Whale; W had received approximately 400 applications and sample CD, and they already chose one male vocal. But on the last lap, as soon as W turned on Whale's CD, they immediately contacted Whale.

This episode shows how important role Whale plays in this album. It is evident from the CD cover; other three male members are putting dummy masks on their face, to emphasize Whale. And as soon as the CD starts to be played, Whale's voice hit the listener's ear.
Some critics say her voice resembles Horan of Clazziquai, or 김윤아 in Jaurim; maybe it's due to androgynous tone. I remind of "peppermint candy" when hearing her voice.


Pale blue-green sea, wave directed exactly to the listener. This feeling is applied in all genres of songs; not only in strong tracks such as "R.P.G. (Rocket Punch Generation) Shine" – the title track, which once was used as background music for SK advertisement – or "Too Young To Die", the strongest track that used the electronic sounds most in this CD, but also in calm, lyrical musics ("Stardust”, "Whale Song”). Actually, I believe it is the latter that reveals Whale's clear voice better. Whale's voice, accommodating with two totally different genres without the smallest strain, makes listeners to nod their head at why this vocal named herself as "Whale". (Her real name is 박은경, but she named herself “Whale” as a stage name to imply that she is ready to try on all kinds of music, wide-ranging.)
It is not only Whale's voice that makes this album appealing. To summarize this album in one word, it would be “storytelling”. Some songs, such as아가사 크리스티의 이중생활or 오빠가 돌아왔다, are directly influenced by real novels (respectively Agatha Christie, and 김영하). Singing along these songs, I felt like reading synopsis of a short film. I attached lyrics of 오빠가 돌아왔다 (the most storytelling track in the whole album, in my view) both in Korean version, and my interpretation to English.

마리 고독한 늑대처럼 세상과 화해하지 못한
매섭게 치켜 눈빛 속에 화려한 슬픔을 간직한
학교 , 사거리의 미소년
이렇게 다시 오빠가 돌아왔다
태양을 등지고 돌아 모습, 모든 멈춘 듯한 순간
생각보다 작은 그의 어깨로 가만히 내려앉는 나비 마리
어딘가 곳을 바라보며 오빠는 가만히 노래했지
현실에 타협할 없었던 위대한 패배자들의 Blues
수밖에 없는 게임의 법칙, 하지만 후회 따윈 하지 않아
그는 어느새 웃고 있었지, 번도 없는 고운 웃음
Always like one solitary wolf, not reconciling with the world
Holding flamboyant grief in his fierce glare
School main street, Adonis of that crossroads
Like this – Older Brother came back.
His back toward the Sun, a moment everything is stopped
Older Brother gently sings, gazing somewhere far away
Blues of Great Defeated, those who could not compromise the world
Rule of this game is, one never win; though one never regrets
He was smiling again, warm laugh I’ve never seen before

But storytelling is not limited to individual tracks; the whole album itself is a “metafiction”. Tracks combined together create a bigger story. There are three MacGuffins in <Hardboiled> that plays the role of intermission in musical. Usually, peaceful, relaxing melodies are introduced right after the MacGuffin, then extended into high-spirited and lively music. Repeating this organization three times (since there are three MacGuffins) makes listeners to think the album as a novel with three chapters, or a grand musical with three acts.


After <Hardboiled>, W&Whale released mini album <Random Tasks> (2009), digital single <Born To Rock> (2009), and EP <CIRCUSSSS> (2011). W&Whale was also selected as “the most original artists of 2010” by Monocle, the cultural magazine of UK. Now W&Whale is acknowledged as Korea’s leading band of electronic music.

Actually, when Whale first joined the team in 2006, she said she hesitated a lot because she thought electronic sounds of machines could not convey emotions. However, as she continues to work with W for more than five years, Whale now admits electronic sounds combined together can deliver even more delicate impressions than acoustic jazz she previously purused. W&Whale says, in chorus, what they seek in their music is “diversity”, by using various electronic sounds and creating extensive sensibility. And this is why I expect forward their next fresh step.



RATINGS

VOCAL ★★★★★
INSTRUMENTS ★★★★☆
LYRICS ★★★★★
ORGANIZATION ★★★★★
FUTURE EXPECTATION ★★★★★
OVERALL 4.8

2011년 11월 4일 금요일

#9. Reading Journal: Rita Hayworth and Shawshank Redemption

Ye Ji Park / 111053 / 6
Mr.Garrioch
English Composition
November 5 2011


 
Reading Journal: Rita Hayworth and Shawshank Redemption


 
“It's hard to win, easy to lose
We play a game we cannot choose
As steady as a rocking horse, as subtle as a bruise.”
This is an excerpt from Oi Va Voi's song titled "Waiting", which Mr. Moon gave us as a free essay topic. And I questioned myself; what is the “hard to win, easy to lose” game that I am playing? In Mr. Moon’s class, there was time constraint (25 minutes) and I wrote anything that came to my mind first. But later, as I read Stephen King’s Rita Hayworth and Shawshank Redemption, I was able to find my answer to the question.


One major motif in the novella is institutionalization. Red tells the prison walls are funny; “first you hate them, then you get used to them. And enough time passes, you get so used you depend on.” Prison life is scheduled, predictable, and monotonous; prisoners detest repetitious days of the prison, but actually, they are tamed to the repetitious and unchanging prison life. And once they get parole—permission to leave the prison—they hesitate and feel fear of entering the society. Brooks, in the story, was an important man in Shawshank; he was an educated librarian. However, back to society, he’s nothing but useless ex-con suffering from neuralgia. He, failed to adjust the society, ended up committing suicide. Even Andy dithered over breakout; Red explains the reason Andy did not escape right after finishing to dig the hole is that maybe Andy got scared, to leave from convenient prison life that “you are told when to eat, when you can write letters, when you can smoke”. Despite the institutional syndrome, Andy at last decided to escape, and he achieved freedom. Freedom to do something you want to do, not something the warder demands to do.

(Brooks, desiring to return Shawshank)

(Brooks committing suicide)


KMLA is similar to Shawshank. Students are accustomed to the repetitious schedule—morning exercise, advisor time, classes, self-study period, Honjung, bedtime—and tremendous workload of quizzes, presentations, midterm, final term, etc. I, institutionalized to KMLA, am busy every day to finish the homework which deadline is the very day.
But if I continue to do nothing more than works school gives, I would never be able to break out from institutional syndrome. I would not search about what I want to do; no effort to find my area of concern, or to participate in interesting activities. Only if I find extra time between school schedules, and use it to achieve something I want, I would be Andy who escaped from the institutionalized prison and achieved freedom. Remind Oi Va Voi’s lyrics; the “hard to win, easy to lose” game I’m playing is time management.

KMLA is not Shawshank itself; rather, it is an egg containing both Shawshank and Zihuatanejo. I, nine months ago, entered this egg; and right now, I’m floundering in the “Shawshank yolk”. To swim out of yolk—managing time effectively—is hard game to play. Still, once I succeed to thrust temptation of being institutionalized and satisfying at given schedule away, I would reach “Zihuatanejo albumen”. The place that I can care about my own activity and prepare my own soaring, like Andy did in Zihuatanejo.



#5-2. One Flew over a Cuckoo's Nest: Hero's Journey (Analysis Journal)

Writer's Comments

I promised myself to write series of essays on one book I was greatly impressed of (#5-1. Miscellaneous). Now I reveal; the book was One Flew over a Cuckoo’s Nest (Ken Kesey), and here comes my first essay! I’m not sure whether this can be called “review”, because this analysis journal is close to report about hero’s journey in the novel. This essay is quite informative; it lacks my opinion, and almost every paragraphs are merely explaining hero’s journey stage with quotations. Maybe in the next essay, I can combine my personal experience or impressions with this book =) Anyway, I spent a lot of time writing this “report”, so though it might seem quite long and boring, hope you enjoy it =) And if I don't forget, I will attach some pictures that will entertain you while reading the essay!


                                                                                                                                   

Ye Ji Park / 111053 / 6
Mr.Garrioch
English Composition
November 4 2011

Hero’s Journey: One Flew over a Cuckoo's Nest

     Whenever my grandmother and two uncles—who all are devout Christians—talk about how Jesus Christ sacrificed himself for mankind, one question always pops in my head; Was Jesus courageous all the time? Didn’t Jesus feel lonesome and fear, and crave escape from his responsibility sometimes? Well, Jesus lived more than two thousand years ago, and there is no way to ask him how he felt during his hero’s journey – but I have no doubt that Jesus may had yearned for running away at least once. Not only external obstacles, such as the persecution of Rome, but also internal hardships including believers’ doubt upon him would had driven him to question what the objective of his heroic journey is. Still, despite the temptation to stop the journey, Jesus completed his journey; this was because he had a clear answer to the objective question. He had done this journey not for himself, but for the mankind. Meeting the gazes of people in hope, he had to accomplish his journey and actualize the promise of hope.
     R.P. McMurphy, the protagonist of One Flew Over a Cuckoo’s Nest (Ken Kesey), is the Jesus in an Oregon psychiatric hospital. The protagonist grasped the existence of invisible violence and totalitarian state in this hospital as soon as he joined the patients group, and also that the main culprit was Miss Ratched, the “Big Nurse”. The novel vividly depicts how McMurphy behaved, thought, and felt in each stage—the sacrifices he made for the other patients, despite he himself was getting tired and exhausted.
      McMurphy was a criminal; he committed various offenses, including “leading an escape from a Communist prison camp, … a history of street brawls and barroom fights, … drunkenness, assault and battery, disturbing the peace, repeated gambling, and … rape.” When he was given a chance to decide whether to stay – psychiatric hospital or the prison, Pendleton Farm – he followed the public view that few months with insane people is better than in prison. When he voluntarily chose to enter the mental hospital, it was McMurphy’s original world.
But as he arrived in the hospital, his ordinary world started to shatter. When McMurphy laughed, patients “looked spooked and uneasy”, and when he offered hand to Ellis, one of the patients, Ellis “looks down … in pure surprise”. Slight suspicion upon this world turned into conviction as Big Nurse publicized Harding’s sense of inferiority upon his wife in the meeting, and the patients insinuated him by shooting offensive questions. McMurphy titled the meeting “peckin’ party”; he said “the flock gets sight of a spot of blood on some chicken and they all go to peckin’ at it, till they rip the chicken to shreds, blood and bones and feathers”. Then McMurphy pointed out the Big Nurse as the first chicken to peck. Harding unwillingly admitted McMurphy’s point, still showed no volition to revolt, since he viewed himself as someone who “can’t adjust to rabbithood, and need a good strong wolf like the nurse to teach their place”. This is the moment McMurphy is called into the adventure; he could not accept the fact that every patient were underestimating, self-denouncing, and obeying themselves to the Big Nurse’s domination. He promised to “put a betsy bug up that nurse’s butt within a week”. Still, until this stage, McMurphy did not consider the adventure any more serious than usual gambling he enjoyed playing.
McMurphy, as he promised, started to arouse trivial revolutions to make the Big Nurse lose her temper. He sang, wandered the dorm with only underpants on, gambled at cards, proposed to change the regular schedule so that patients can watch the baseball Series. Some of his efforts were successful; especially the last action was provocative enough to agitate Big Nurse, “hollering and squealing about discipline and order and recriminations”. However, as McMurphy heard that a committed patient, such as him, could not leave the hospital without the Big Nurse’s permission, he decided to stop his little gambling. At the meeting, when Cheswick argued the patients should be free to possess cigarettes by themselves, instead of being distributed from nurses, he asked for McMurphy’s support. And McMurphy kept silence, “didn’t even look up”. This clearly shows McMurphy, afraid that he might not be able to leave the hospital, is refusing the call.
Not soon, however, McMurphy decided to return to adventure. This is due to Cheswick’s suicide; Cheswick, disappointed at Mack’s indifference, killed himself by clutching the grate of the swimming pool so firmly, thereby drowning. McMurphy learned that his attitude can greatly influence patients, regarding even their life. This lesson made him realize his responsibility as a leader, thus the confrontation of Cheswick’s suicide can be titled the meeting with a mentor.
To interpret the meeting with a mentor stage in another perspective, it could be the moment when McMurphy grasped how to lead the patients. Once, McMurphy questioned others, “Why should it be me goes to bat at these meetings over these piddling little gripes about keeping the dorm door open and about cigarettes in the Nurses’s Station?”, and blamed that the patients should not use him, but act by themselves. Then Billy screamed that patients including him are not big and tough enough to revolt, while McMurphy can. In other words, Billy again underestimated him as a rabbit. And here, the goal of his leading is defined; inspiring self-confidence to the patients, so that they can recognize themselves as “good strong wolves”, not “rabbits”. This experience determines McMurphy’s destination on the hero journey—that is, it plays the mentor’s role.
While realizing the heavy responsibility and setting the objective of revolution, McMurphy first decided to rise a big disturbance that can show patients change can occur in the hospital. When the Big Nurse tried to exert her authority by taking away the privilege of the tub room in where patients played card games, McMurphy “ran his hand through the glass (of the Nurses’ Station), got one of the cartons of cigarettes with his name on it and took out a pack”. As Cheswick once criticized, patients were not allowed to get the cigarettes except when the nurses distribute them. Thus, McMurphy’s act of breaking the glass and taking out a cigarette shows a clear sign of revolt against the nurses’ authority and regulations. Once such obvious challenge is happened, McMurphy can no longer cancel his volition to revolt, which is definitely the crossing the threshold stage.
Afterwards, McMurphy started activities inducing patients’ participation, such as organizing basketball team or planning fishing trips. The Big Nurse tried to disturb McMurphy, for example, by “bringing in clippings from the newspapers that told about wrecked boats and sudden storms on the coast” so that patients would think fishing trip is dangerous. Still, McMurphy took a firm stand, persuaded people that two aunts accustomed in sea voyage will go with, and kept gathering participants. He also made allies; representative is Chief Bromden, whom he encouraged to grow again to his original grand size—in other words, to regain his masculinity. All of these are definitely about Tests, Allies, and Enemies.
The inmost cave McMurphy approached is the fishing trip. When McMurphy and patients stopped by the oil station, the staffs mocked them. Staffs were going to sell the “weak and dirty and watered down and cost twice the usual price” gas and unnecessary items such as “new oil filters and windshield wipes and sunglasses”. Patients knew the staffs were belittling them, but could do nothing except approving at everything staffs say. Then McMurphy brought a wind of change; he threatened the staffs, saying that he and his companions are “lunatics from the hospital up the highway, psycho-ceramics, the cracked pots of mankind”. Previously, patients’ identity as psychopaths made them to believe they are abnormal and inferior to the general public. However, McMurphy turned this flaw into strength, thereby gave patients self-confidence. To illustrate, on the remaining way to the sea, Billy, Harding, Chief Bromden, and all the other patients “sit up straight and strong and tough-looking” every time people gaze green uniforms of mental hospital eerily.
McMurphy’s attempt to plant strong identity to the patients is even more emphasized on the board. When four poles started to whip over, patients did not know what to do and called McMurphy for help. However, McMurphy just “laughed and stood at the cabin door, not even making a move to do anything”. At last, when they caught the fish, it was their achievement, not McMurphy’s. Also, on their way back to the shore, it was Billy who volunteered to take off his life jacket for the girl, not McMruphy. This shows that Mack yielded the position of hero to others, thereby making them feel valuable and proud of self. Such transfer of leadership from McMurphy alone to his followers is what McMurphy set as his goal; this implies Mack’s success in the inmost cave.
However, McMurphy was slowly feeling tired and exhausted in his role as the leader. To fight against the Big Nurse, and simultaneously, to motivate patients to follow the way he lead, must gave him grand mental stress. Chief Bromden mentioned he saw from McMurphy’s face—“dreadfully tired and strained and frantic, like there wasn’t enough time left for something he had to do…” This clearly shows McMurphy’s exhaustion, additionally foreshadows that maybe McMurphy would, in the end, be completely fatigued, losing or barely winning in the battle with the Big Nurse.
After the trip, the Big Nurse decided to plant seed of suspicion among patients toward McMurphy. She pointed out that everyone’s account balance was going down except McMurphy’s, and questioned them to think about McMurphy’s objective of being a leader. As the Big Nurse planned, patients, including Harding and even Chief Bromden, started to suspect about Mack “always winning things”, and maybe the purpose of him leading is to gain money. This ordeal is, however, turned into reward in near future. In the shower room, when George firmly refused to cleanse himself but black boys forced him to do so, McMurphy stopped the boys. As a result, he was sent to the Disturbed, and this heroic action returned patients’ faith toward McMurphy as a reward.
McMurphy suffered from the Disturbed; he was given four electric shocks—which was called “treatment”—one week. As soon as he recovered from the shock, he received another one. This definitely made him tired; “the muscles in his jaw went taut and his whole face drained of color, looking thin and scared”, every time he was called for treatment. Still, McMurphy did not forget his responsibility as leader—he consolidated Chief, who also received treatment once, to “Don’t holler”. He also did not forget sense of humor he used to irritate the Big Nurse (he’d tell her “she could kiss his rosy red ass before he’d give up the goddam ship”) and insisted EST wasn’t hurting him. When McMurphy returned to the ward, he postponed his breakout until Billy’s date with a prostitute; this date is the last adventure on the road back, to let Billy confront a girl and thereby establish his identity as a man – what McMurphy tried to do during his whole journey.
McMurphy decided to run away after the party is over, but he fell in asleep and when he woke up the Big Nurse was already in the hospital. As the Big Nurse inspected what had happened last night, she found Billy Bibbit and the girl together on one mattress. Bibbit first responded proudly to the Big Nurse’s shaming, but as the Nurse threatened him with his weak point—mother—Bibbit returned to a weak mental patient from last night’s man. Rabbit Bibbit confessed what and by whom the party was done, and after, he committed suicide, ashamed of his own modification.
Throughout the harsh journey, McMurphy succeeded in changing Billy into a man, and the Big Nurse had returned Billy into a rabbit within few seconds. McMurphy had to do something about Billy’s death, maybe a shockingly revolution stronger than any previous ones, to prevent the other patients modifying like Billy did and the hospital returning to totalitarian state. This is why he strangled the Big Nurse to eliminate her voice, her tool of giving orders to the patients, the symbol of her authority. He knew that he will be lobotomized by attacking the Nurse, thus lose his future days, still he put into his action for the patients. This last sacrifice is the resurrection, the revival of journey that could be stopped by the Big Nurse’s disturbance.
Patients realized that it was them themselves, not McMurphy’s gambling nature or the Big Nurse, who drove McMurphy to sacrifice his whole life. Chief Bromden reviewed that they could not stop McMurphy crying over Billy because the patients “were the ones making him do it” and it was their “need that was making him push himself slowly up from sitting, … obeying orders beamed at from forty masters”. Chief, thus, feels responsibility to repay McMurphy for his heroic acts. This is why Chief suffocated McMurphy after he returned to the ward, lobotomized. By killing McMurphy, Chief stopped the Big Nurse from using Mack as “an example of what can happen if you buck the system”. McMurphy would be remembered to people in hero’s image eternally—which is, unquestionably, return with the elixir.
If McMurphy performed the journey for entertainment—gambling nature—or material greed, he would never be able to overcome the exhaustion and mental stress. Just because he had worked for patients, like Jesus did for the mankind, he was able to put forth every ounce of his energies. Considering this noble motivation, and all the obstacles that McMurphy so hardly conquered, McMurphy deserves to be reminisced as the evermore hero in the minds of patients.

2011년 11월 3일 목요일

#8-2. Life Lesson: Leadership

Leadership Violence

When I was in seventh grade, I became the class president. I believed that my responsibility as a class president is controlling the class well. Our class was composed of friends with bright and active personality, but sometimes this personality acted negatively, especially during the class time. If a teacher who does not care much about the class attitude comes in, friends started to chat and play with each other, so loudly that the teacher could not even continue the class. As I viewed this as a serious problem, I decided to “control” the class to keep quiet during the class time. I wrote down names of friends who made much clamor, and gave the list to the homeroom teacher. Our homeroom teacher was a member of student guidance, and his cane was well known for making girls burst into tears and leaving bruises. He caned students in the list, and the effect was immediate. At the very next class, everybody kept silence so that the teacher asked me in surprise, “What had you done?” I was very proud of myself.


But my pride did not continue so long. I once heard some boys in our class talking about me, the class president, by accident. They complained that I was acting like a totalitarian, trying to manipulate the class by beating up. The moment I heard it, I was so angry to them, thinking how well I created calm atmosphere over the class. However, as I thought about it more and more, I had to admit the boys were right; violence should not be method for rule. The class members would see me in fear and hatred, which will bring out intimidating discordance in the group. I changed my method; if there was a friend talking too loudly during the class, I would stare at him in anxious gaze or write a short message asking him to hold off talking until the break time. Class members followed my recommendation, as they understood how much I was trying to keep the class silent, and also appreciated me for using much more peaceful and conciliatory way. As a result, I succeeded in achieving nice class atmosphere as I first planned, and also kept the amicable relationship between class friends.

And this was one of my most valuable experiences as a leader; I learned that violence, though it seems to have an instantaneous and powerful effect, should not be the way to lead the group. Instead, it should be persuasive communication that makes both sides understand each other.