Ye Ji Park / 111053 / b4
Mr. Garrioch
English Composition
November 29 2012
Silence – Not Always the Best Speech
[University of Chicago Prompt] Essay
Option #3. Susan Sontag, AB'51, wrote that "[s]ilence remains,
inescapably, a form of speech." Write about an issue or a situation when
you remained silent, and explain how silence may speak in ways that you did or
did not intend.
Two hours left, yet I still heard from no one.
Among twenty people I contacted, thirteen said "Sorry, I have another
schedule," and seven did not even respond. "New Message Arrived"
– I opened my phone in slight expectation. It was, however, a message from the
club teacher urging me to give the names of two participants right away. I
threw away my phone in anger, and let out a loud wail.
MUNESCO, which stands for Minjok UNESCO, is a
volunteer organization in KMLA that I had been the Chief for the last six
months. One special characteristic of MUNESCO is that it is one of numerous
affiliated clubs under the Korean National Federation of UNESCO; that is, there
are similar clubs in other high schools all over the nation. Usually, each club
acts independently, but occasionally there are camps that assemble all clubs to
share their achievements. I was looking for two members who could join a three-day
camp which would be held during the summer vacation. However, among twenty
members – twelve juniors and eight freshmen – no one volunteered. No one.
Eventually, I couldn’t find two participants
until the last moment, and had to contact the club teacher and National
Federation that MUNESCO would not be able to join the camp. After being
severely reprimanded, I started to question myself; why everyone was so passive
to participate in club activities? Maybe my leadership had been wrong, I
thought. Looking back the past half year, I realized that it was not the first
time that MUNESCO members did not show their best devotion; they did not appear
in group meeting, kept making excuses for not attending camps, and often
ignored my contacts. My solution to this problem was “the speech of silence”, not
direct confrontation and scolding. I expected that my silence would speak out
everything – how I was doing all the jobs, including the members’ work; how
burdened I was; how desperately I was waiting for the members’ apologies and
voluntary participation; and so on.
But the solution did not work at all. All the
members were already too busy with their assignments, quizzes, and other club
activities. They were not attentive enough to be concerned over someone trying
to convey message via silence. At the end of the first semester, I was utterly
exhausted that I couldn’t continue working alone in silence. Still, I was too
afraid to break the silence, which would create public discord. I eventually renounced
the Chief position; I entrusted another member – the one who showed the most
enthusiasm among reluctant members – with full power.
The new Chief’s policy was, definitely, not
silence; she was not afraid to speak out loudly of her dissatisfaction about
the members’ passiveness, even if it led to discord and conflict. Whenever she
felt that members were not doing their best, she posted a status in reproach
and anger on Facebook. Ashamed to be “publicized” for their lack of devotion,
members started to participate. They came to almost every meeting, tried to
join the campaigns except for the inevitable cases, and paid attention to the
outspoken Chief.
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(This is not real; I just made it up, but something similar like this was updated on the New Chief's FB wall few times.) |
Silence, definitely,
works far better than grandiloquent speech in some cases. As Leonardo da Vinci
pointed out, “[n]othing strengthens authority so much as silence.” But
sometimes, like my experience with MUNESCO, silence does not act as an
effective form of speech; the listeners are too busy or inattentive to search
for the message the silent speaker is trying to convey. Evidently, silence is
not the best approach a leader can always employ.
To be honest, I did not want to upload this essay on my blog. This essay is about one of the most embarrassing experiences in my life; thinking back, I feel stupid about me for shrinking and hesitating to speak out, in an idle fear that members would resist to my reproach. But I actually learned an important thing -- that "silence is not the best approach a leader can always employ", as I stated in this essay's conclusion -- so... it's not that bad to undergo a frustration in return for some lesson, I guess? J